Saturday, December 27, 2003

I just started working on the pages I plan to send to the children. This is the one time I wish I could see their faces. I guess I want to know that they actually enjoy them. I want to know that they really do bring a smile to their faces.

When we first found out my nephew had cancer, I was shocked. No child was supposed to get this disease. They hadn't had the time to live any, they are just starting to learn what live is all about. Now they are learning leasons about live that noone should know. My sister handled the situation pretty well actually, and it made me wonder just how I would handle it if it were me. Would I be strong for my child? What would I do? Children are a blessing, and to see that child sick, knowing there is no way I can make it better, would probably tear me apart. As a parent it is my job to keep my children safe. Because of this I have learned that there are somethings that no matter what I do, I can't protect them from everything. What a hard lesson to learn! I do know one thing, I will always love my children. I will always try to be there for them no matter what.

Anyway, I hope your holiday season was everything you wanted. I hope everyone in your family is safe and happy.

God's blessing go with you always


Thursday, December 25, 2003

Here it is Christmas Day, and I finally have some time to myself. Both boys and my husband are asleep. Man, it's so nice to have a little peace and quiet. Now all I need is another adult to talk to sometimes. Don't get me wrong, I love all three of them, but when my husband comes home from work, he's so tired, and while the boys can be fun to be around, they are not the best conversationalist, most especialy the three year old.

I love watching them play with the new toys they got. The way their eyes light up as they discover each new thing the toys can do. It makes me remember when I was young, and isn't that way we have children anyway? To bring back a small amount of our youth? Bo remind us of what it was like to be children? While sometimes they drive me crazy, I can't imagine my life without them in it. And my husband, we've been married for almost 19 years. It hasn't been the smoothest road to ride, but I wouldn't change any of it. It makes me wonder what tomorrow holds in store for me. Will the boys actually get along, will they fight and bicker? What will my husband do to drive me crazy? Will he be in a playful mood, or just laid back and relaxed?

Anyway, I hope you had a wonderful Christmas, and that you got what you wanted most! May the New Year bring you all the joy and love you desire!

God's blessings to you always.


Wednesday, December 24, 2003

Welcome to the fist post in my new journal.

I want you to know that this program is very dear to my heart.

When I first found out about my nephew having cancer, it broke my heart. After all, this was supposed to happen to other people, not my family, but I guess everyone feels that way. Austin was only 13 years old. He hadn't had a chance to see anything of the world. I might have understood it better if it had been someone older. Anyway, this program began because of the kindness some of the people around here showed him by sending him cards. You see, Austin didn't live around here. He lived in a different state. No one here had even met him, yet they cared about what happened to him. It made me realize that the other children in the same situation would probably like it if they knew someone cared about them even though they had never met. That is why I started this program. I want to think that this is making a difference in the lives of these children that I send the pages to. Hopefully, this program can expand. That is my dream, to have the going to every children's hospital and agency in the US and abroad.

Anyway, this is my first post and I wanted you to understand why I started this. I plan on adding more post when I can. Come back anytime to visit.